For me, doing this work on the sutras was like seeing the Emporer’s New Clothes. Or not seeing them
I want to experience the magnificent tapestry of these thousands of years of mystery….but only get descriptions; and I know that words are no substitute for direct experience according to Swami Rama. He says to be careful about who you do listen to; so I go to the library and find books that refer to sutras and tell of the autobiographical experiences of the authors as they progressed in their yoga practice. The sutras are always part of the bigger picture since postures are only one part of a yoga lifestyle.
I watch the videos……The words get all jumbled. The concepts lead into one another and remind me a a plate of spaghetti….It is an enjoyable jumble and I don’t necessarily tease out only one strand as I ingest and enjoy the dish before me. It actually works best as a tangled mess.
Speaking of tangled mess, let me tell you a story about what happened with super fine alpaca yarn I bought.
It was nearly impossible to untangle as I tried to roll it into a ball from the skein. It kept breaking and I had lots of small pieces. I wanted to return it; and then I realized that I would use it and make something really unique. It would be a metaphor for wholeness and the unification of opposites. Yes, the scarf turned out nicer than the original I had planned due to its variations and imperfections. It is perfect, as we are perfect. We must embrace the all of who we are ….imperfections and all…while consciously trying to attain the highest spiritual and vibrational level.
And I wonder why is this 5 minute presentation so hard for me?
I….I need to develop D’Harana….Choose a focus…which leads to Dhyana…a continuous focus which leads to clarification and stabilization of the heartmind. I choose to focus on the Divine Within. The Upanishad says that a thumb size flame burns at the heart which is the splendor of pure awareness
It also is ongoing radiating love. I equate the light of the flame with divine love. Love which is manifest when we tune in and allow it to flow…Turn on your heartlight. Let it shine.. I actually try to take selfies of the light radiating through me and I can see myself merge into it as brightness and rays it cover me.
I focus my full attention on this eternal flame within which leads to samadhi…..Yes, I have been “ in the Zone”…I have been so absorbed that I feel unity, balance, harmony.
Just this week, when I was knitting the scarf for my nephew at my brother’s, I had such deep concentration on what I was doing that I didn’t even notice that the room was getting dark with sunset. My brother asked why I didn’t turn on the light, but I was so lost in each stitch that I only saw the yarn and felt the needles. Time was non existent.
So with my Dhahrana, it is time to dip into the still lake of potential within. It’s still water holds my consciousness…. i merge into the still water of the lake of potential and am part of all there is…. I am that which I shall become. I am all. I am the present…I am the breath…. I am breathed. Everything is energy into which I merge.
Do days of contemplation on this handout result in a handout for what I watched and read? No they result in a mobius strip that is my experience manifest in such a way that words cannot explain. I don’t want to get bogged down in words. You find the words in the depths of your being. For you and I are one. We are also the words…and the paper.. As Yoginis, we have merged our individual soul with the cosmic soul and know that Life is a question. Swami Rama said so. Yes Life is a Mystery.
Ok I’ll explain the mobius strip…It is just one piece of paper or fabric in which the ends are connected and the inside becomes the outside and the outside becomes the inside. do you get it yet?
In Samadhi….are there questions? We are the mystery…We are the part of the unknown about to do What? Who knows?
In Sanskrit, the words TAT TVAM ASI state that your deepest self in its purest primordial state is the essence of everything else. I get it… I am the mountain. I am the pouring rain. I am the roaring ocean. I am the breeze and the tornado. I am fire. I am grass. I am holy. I am a face of the divine looking into other divine faces for we each wear a different face of G-d.
Swami Rama set the example of weaving the sutras together and I am continuing to process and share what I got from them
Because of my D’havana, my focused practice, my mind aligns with the essence of every given moment. I am intuitive. I hear the whispers of the universe.. The power of "All there Is" speaks through me; and it is no longer my will but Thy Will.
I will finish by reading you something that I heard yesterday when I was at a service which was all about love and radiance….
There is one love, one GOD, one mighty divine energy within all living things.
I invite, welcome, and acknowledge this love,
knowing that it is at the heart of my being.,
emanating into every cell, every organ, and every function of my body.
Every thought that I think, every feeling that I feel, every action that I take is imbued with this love.
I choose love.
I choose peace.
I choose vitality and health.
I chooses beauty on the inside and out.
I choose abundance.
I choose mutually fulfilling relationships and fun.
Anything that is unlike love, I release now to the violet flame of mercy and forgiveness (and compassion MAJ)
They are no longer mine.
I fill the space with love. So be it!